I am so sorry if I ever made you feel like you’re alone!

Shit, life is a rollercoaster.

As I slid under the covers of my cozy duvet, feeling content, feeling like I’ve made a real difference today, I am pulled to my phone to check in one last time before cuddling into the arms of the Sandman.

OF COURSE I FELT THE PULL.

Because, right there in front of me I witnessed a courageous woman reaching out in her moment of desperation.

Hands shaking.

Voice unstable.

The smile desperately trying to downplay the pain reflected in her eyes.

Finally releasing the bullshit of shame that has imprisoned her in struggle.

Finally taking off the mask of ‘perfection’, the constant high vibration which she so brilliantly holds up for everyone else.

And tears start pouring down my face because for me today was an epic fucking failure!

HOW DARE I NOT SHOW UP MORE?

HOW DARE I GO TO BED WHEN THERE IS ANOTHER PERSON IN MY REACH IN MOTHERFUCKING PAIN?

Feeling isolated.

Feeling hopeless.

Feeling as if nobody will truly understand because her shit smells and everyone else apparently poops rainbows.

This was not the deal I made with God when I was released from the pits of depression.

I did not turn my life around only to tippy toe, leaving people out in the cold.

I did not come here to touch a couple of lives a day and go to sleep in peace, patting myself on the back for inspiring a single soul into action.

I did not come here to make you feel that your pain is different from mine.

That my life is a breeze where I ride unicorns and skip with daisies in my hair.

That is not the life I choose.

I choose a life of hard knocks.

I choose a life of relentless learning and there’s a reason they call it growing pains.

But I choose it because I am not here this time around to live for me.

I am not here this time around for me to be a fucking princess.

I am here as a warrior!

Ready to fight for your epic.

Ready to bleed for your liberation.

Ready to die for your thrive!

Because I see within you the glorious gifts that only YOU can give to humanity.

I see within you the unlimited potential to create change in a world where so much pain is swept under the rug because heaven forbid we should not have an inspirational Instagram account.

I see within you the warrior who has chosen a life of immense pain, struggle, hardship, understanding on a soul level that this is simply your training ground.   Your experience of how fucked up the current system is so that like the Berlin Wall it can be broken down!  Because the system cannot withstand the power of determined people!

This is where you get to work out your mental muscle, your spiritual muscle, your physical muscles, so that you can be ready for your time.

Your time when you break down the boundaries of bullshit that has kept you hidden from the sight of the haters.  Those who uphold the illusion of lack and mediocrity at all costs for they don’t have the courage to do the mindset work that will free them from their fear.

Your time to rise from the ashes and shine so bright that only those who are willing to burn look at you.

And here’s what I want you to know Darling

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

Your tribe is everywhere!

Your true tribe.

The warriors who are sweating and bleeding and crying in their personal battles.

The warriors who are here to bring light in a time when the darkness thinks it’s won.

The warriors who won’t rock you to sleep in their sympathetic arms but who will reach out a hand and tell you to get the fuck up!

To rise!

To keep going!

Because staying on the ground is not your soul choice.

I know it feels like it at times.

That it would just be so easy to stay down.  To just keep up the pretence of happiness.

To dull your senses with drugs and alcohol and mindless entertainment.

To just give up your dreams and convincing yourself that it’s just not meant to be.

Rather stay in the dead-end job.

Just shove that burger into your mouth.

Stay down.

Blend in.

Except it’s not!

IT’S FUCKING TORTURE TO YOUR SOUL AND YOU WILL GET TO A MORNING WHEN YOU LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR FILLED WITH SO MUCH DISGUST IN YOUR ABANDONMENT OF SELF THAT YOU WILL PULL THE TRIGGER!

NOT ON MY WATCH!

I promise you that as long as I take a breath of air, you are not alone!

I am here for you.

Always.

I am in service to you.

YOUR greatness.

YOUR purpose.

YOUR impact.

But you have to reach out to me.

You have to raise your hand and say HELL YES to yourself.

And so after a restless night of tossing and turning I sat with my journal this morning and I poured out my shame onto pages blotted with tears.

Tears of sorrow for still hiding in some shadow of fear up to this point.

Tears of regret for not doing more up to this point.

Tears of mourning for all the opportunities of impact I let slide away because I was too big of a pussy to show up for you.

And then I wiped those tears off.

Tears are meant to cleanse so that we can find greater clarity.

And that is exactly what I have received this morning.

From the depths of my heart I want to say thank you Courageous Warrior Woman who held up the mirror for me to see where I am still playing so small.

Thank you for reminding me that I can rest when I’m dead.

For now, I choose to shift gears up.

To reach more born leaders who are finding themselves in muddled times of uncertainty.

To walk beside them and illuminating the path which has to this point been hidden by their fears.

To bring their light to the world because everyone matters.

No warrior gets left behind.

Not a single one.

Are you with me my Darling?

Are you ready to rise?

Are you ready to stop training and to start fighting?

It won’t be easy.

It won’t be pretty.

But I believe in you.

I know it’s your time now.

But you have to choose to Fucking Rise!

For only death is inevitable.

Thriving truly is a courageous choice.

With love eternal,

Anel

PS:  Let 2017 be your last year of shitty choices based on shame and fear and anything that does not serve your soul purpose.  That is not in alignment with your truth.

2018 is the year of powerful manifestation and you’re going to get whatever you choose to focus on, whatever you choose to believe.

If you’re done with the getting the same results you’ve been getting up to now, it’s time for us to connect.

It’s time for us to look at what’s really going on and what your options are going forward.

I am gifting anyone and everyone who is ready to play full out with one hour of powerful coaching – free of charge.  No strings attached.

But only claim this gift if you’re willing to play full out.

Only claim this gift if you are committed to take action immediately following our call – whatever that action is for you to move forward towards your true desires.

Are you ready to play?