This blog is especially for Roxanne – the most gracious swan of all.
I love doing shit that keeps me humble.
The type of things that keep my ego in check by choosing to look anything but phenomenal.
In fact if you ever see me practicing my chosen physical activities you probably think WTF?
I’ve heard some of the most hysterical comments when people think my music is loud so I can’t hear them.
That’s because I’m the most unlikely of candidates on any field or floor.
Turns out this is true for yoga as well.
I sometimes look at myself and wonder what the hell ever happened to the ballet dancer?
I kid you not – I pretty much danced from the time I could stand and was planning a career as a professional dancer until I fucked up my knees at age 18.
I used to consider myself extraordinarily graceful and believed that since I walk like a duck I was destined to be a ballerina. Looking at myself today I might have been delusional.
Then something went South.
I wish I could blame my age except I know that’s bullshit.
I stopped practicing on a daily basis.
My joints started stiffening up.
I picked up a few more injuries along the way from falling off my bike (on numerous occasions) to overusing my joints to just living like a maniac and abusing my body more often than I would like to admit.
It takes me a while just to get up in the morning and have everything settle back into place.
Which is how I found myself in class this morning at 6:15 doing the very un-yogi thing by looking around and spotting Roxanne.
OMG she just makes everything look so graceful and easy.
A real swan.
Regal, long limbed, inspirational.
And then I looked at myself in the mirror.
Apparently my ‘duck feet’ has spread throughout my body and so now I pretty much just look like a duck in whatever pose I attempt to do.
Think short squatty legs. Think big bottom. Think waddle. Think the opposite of swan.
That’s pretty much me!
I had to giggle.
The duck and the swan practicing side by side.
And you know what – never once does the swan make me feel ugly. We’re just different and we both appreciate that.
Isn’t life great?
I think it’s our difference that keep it real and I love it!
Roxanne will always be a swan and she will inspire all who watch her by how effortless she makes it look.
I will always be a duck and my life is about inspiring people that we can do whatever the hell we truly desire regardless of anything!
That’s why I became an IronMan athlete even though I couldn’t swim.
That’s why I became a SkyRunner when I was told to throw away my running shoes because my lower back is disintegrating and my hip is merrily tearing me up inside.
And that’s probably why I’m doing yoga.
I don’t ever want people to look at themselves in the mirror and think “Oh I could never do that because I’m not as young, not as fit, not as thin, not as strong, not as tall, not as graceful as the professionals”.
It truly saddens me to see how many people try something new and really love it only to stop doing it because they can’t immediately keep up with the pack. Or because they try for a couple of weeks and don’t see overnight improvement.
It’s all just ego if you think about it.
Yes some people are born with natural talents (we all are) but talent will never beat hard work.
You can have all the talent in the world and if you don’t use it, if you don’t practice it, if you don’t improve it, you might as well not have it at all.
I’m still not sure what my natural talent is but I don’t let that stop me from working my duck ass off to do the things that bring me joy.
Like taking my feet off the wall this morning and doing that headstand!
THAT WAS FUCKING AWESOME!
It has taken me 153 hours of yoga in the past 5 months to get to this point and I’m stupendously proud of myself.
Because it’s hard for me.
Because the first time I was told to take one leg off the floor I doubted for a moment that I would ever be able to do it.
I was terrified.
And the first few times I looked like a hippo trying to pirouette.
I kept coming back. Getting that big buttocks and short legs up a little longer.
I’m a mere 43 hours away from my certification (hallelujah!).
Am I going to transform into a swan overnight?
Bwahahahahaha! Hell no Darling.
I believe the certification will only be the start of my journey.
But I’m going to show others that it’s not about perfection – it’s about improvement. And when you show up for yourself every single day you WILL improve.
This is not just physical improvement.
This includes your mindset. Your business. Your relationships. Your art.
Where attention flows improvement goes.
And when you stop comparing yourself with others to keep yourself small and instead compare yourself to be inspired, you will never stop again. You will keep showing up because you also want to be able to do that.
And if you’re a duck you absolutely want to practice with the swans.
The swans will inspire you.
The swans will show you what will ultimately be possible for you.
The swans will encourage you.
The swans will keep you humble and make damn sure you never loose your sense of humour.
If you do, come do yoga with me and I will show you that it’s never about how you look but about you get to feel.
Now it’s your turn:
Where in your life have you done something a few times that you absolutely loved and then gave up because you didn’t quite get it right in record time?
Where in your life do you have natural talent that you’re just wasting because you’re not practicing it daily?
Where in your life do you hide from the swans instead of being a proud duck?
Quack Quack Baby.
Because death is inevitable but thriving is my choice.
With love and cuddles
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