I’m having the best morning!
Yesterday the weather was supposed to be shitty and overcast. Yet during journaling I was advised to go down to the beach and do yoga.
I was sceptical thinking maybe I heard my guides wrong, then again what the hell do I have to lose other than freezing my tits off?
As I drove, sandy yoga mat still on the backseat from the day before, the sun came out and by the time I arrived we had one of the most perfect mornings I’ve experienced in a very long time.
I didn’t have any sequence planned but decided to let myself be guided by my body, intuitively moving through postures, setting intentions with each.
It was as I moved into Cobra with the intention of opening my heart to receive love that it happened.
I couldn’t do it!
I couldn’t open my heart to the big wide space in front of me.
It felt too overwhelming, too big, too much!
My old self would have said ‘Fuck It’ and just pushed through.
But then again my old self didn’t exactly give a shit about the messages lying in the centre of her emotions.
I allowed myself to go into the smallest of Baby Cobras. Gaze kept firmly on the ground.
I kept moving.
Round after round, slowly shifting the energy through the flow of the salutation.
It took around three rounds before I finally felt the click and fearlessly opened my heart to receive – pushing up into a powerful Upward Facing Dog.
It was liberating.
Yet I knew more was to come.
And it did.
I received a beautiful two hour healing from a very talented coach who helped me do deep, powerful work.
This morning I woke up feeling light and aligned and sure of myself even though I have no clue of the steps.
I received breakfast in bed made by my darling son – bacon, eggs, hash browns, all my favourites.
I received a video from a client where she celebrated pushing through her bullshit and the Universe flinging open the doors she almost abandoned. Wooohooooo!!!! OMG I love my clients’ wins.
Life is feeling pretty fucking amazing!
Why am I sharing this with you?
Because I think sometimes people underestimate how hard the work is but how worthwhile it is.
I could have chosen not to do the real work yesterday.
I could have chosen to disconnect from my body and just do a bunch of random postures in my yoga practice.
I could have chosen to just go through the motions as I have done for most of my life, and as most people do.
I probably wouldn’t have known the difference anyway.
Because when you’re asleep to the truth, you’re oblivious.
Another reason why most people refuse to wake up.
And if you’ve never tasted the sweet nectar of your truth, you look at those who are living purposefully and you call them wankers, idiots, crazy, weirdos, nerds, outcasts.
Their truth scares you but you will never admit that because you’re bad-ass and you’ve got it all together right?
If you’re reading, if you’re still reading, it means that inside there’s a voice that says you’re ready for more, you’re ready for your truth.
There’s a spark that’s reconnecting you with your emotions and as long as you’re out of alignment life is going to feel ‘wrong’.
It will taste bland.
And you’re not fucking vanilla Darling!
Otherwise you wouldn’t be reading this.
I’m going to be 100% transparent with you – this work, the real work, the deep work of healing yourself, is the hardest thing you will ever do in this lifetime.
So many start and stop before hitting gold.
They start with some goals and then because they hit it at the surface level they leave with a smile on their faces never going deeper.
Those who go deeper know that it’s a never-ending roller coaster ride for every time you have a breakthrough, there’s more.
I guess what you have to figure out for yourself is do you think you’re worth it?
I believe you are.
In fact I know you are!
I’m not one to point finger. After all it took me almost 45 years to decide I am worth it.
Really worth it.
Really worth feeling safe.
Really worth owning the power that is not only my birthright but my responsibility for my powers are mine to bring healing.
Really worth healing myself.
Really worth loving myself.
Really worth receiving love.
Really worth feeling joy.
REALLY worth it.
This is a journey that I go on with eyes wide open!
A journey full of ups and downs, tears and laughter, screams of frustration and screams of exhilaration, days of feeling invincible and days of shitting my pants.
You know what?
THIS is what being alive feels like.
Not that constant flat line of existence.
I’ve done existence with the masses – never again. I would rather die.
What will it take for you to believe you’re worth it?
For death is coming. You can still choose to thrive until then.
With love eternal,
PS: This is a time when more people are waking up than ever before. Unfortunately this is also the time when more people are going mad than ever before. I suspect it’s because they start waking up and simply don’t know which direction to take and so they stumble around in fear and pain, determined to do it all on their own, until it becomes too much and then they try to go back to sleep. Except that’s not an option so instead they lose their shit.
Please don’t let that happen to you.
In all honesty I would not be walking this path if it wasn’t for my coaches and teachers.
I realise that there’s still a myth that coaching is for the weak. It’s for those who are mentally disturbed. Those who can’t cope. Nothing can be further from the truth! Coaching is for those who are strong enough to do the real work because their desire to make an impact, to live their purpose, is greater than their fear. Coaching is for those who are mentally healthy for the work would simply harm those who are not.
Are you ready to rise and do your true purpose work? Are you ready to start healing the world by healing yourself? Are you ready to claim your worth?
I’ve opened more spots in my private practice for those who have a deep desire to thrive and who are ready to do whatever the fuck it takes. If that’s you then let’s connect with a coaching consult and see if we’re the right fit for this part of your journey.
I look forward to celebrating your wins!!